Sieve

Some say it is a choice, some feel it is elusive

It runs like careless sand through the hourglass I hold

I know that I should always feel it, but I cannot say I do

In the equation, in the puzzle, what is missing, where is truth

If I can overcome, if I can only overcome

Past the pitfalls, traps and fears, just relax a bit

Let go the misery and the failings, accusations and the lies

Embrace the whole, look past the few, just enjoy the ride

When it is present, I am full, life is bliss it’s true

Then I can see outside myself, beyond the walls I’ve built

The world is beautiful and clear, when it's flowing freely

But, those times depart, life can pass so miserably

At times I’m sleeping, or I’m numb, I cannot feel a thing

Then there’s pain and longing, a darkened emptiness

When I awake, remembering, I wonder where and how

Changes come, ebb and flow, for all I know is now

Some memories elude, some stick like gum in hair

Entangled and so painful, I need to move beyond

What is done, what I do, to what is necessary

Cease to care, strive to learn, remain aware, be wary

Happiness, I have all the ingredients to make you

I have the things I need to possess you, to embrace you

My life is full of love and growth, I know life is a gift

Some days my cup, it overflows, some days it is a sieve

- Liz

5/7/13